You’re feeling lost and that feeling will last well into your 20's. You’re feeling confused and abandoned but those feelings are completely normal for what you’ve been through. You’ll soon learn that people act out of their own selfish needs. It has nothing to do with you, so try not to take it personal.
People may look at you as weak for crying, but that is the farthest thing from the truth. It's okay to cry. You’re an extremely strong and courageous girl. The sooner you accept that, the sooner you can let go of the embarrassment you feel when you cry. People will mistake your tears for weakness. Again, don’t take it personal. Everyone deals with things in their own way. If you feel like you need to cry to let off some steam, then let the tears flow.
Family will always support you, even if they don’t know how to show it in a way that you’re comfortable with. Don’t take constructive criticism as verbal abuse. It’s just how some people try to help you. You’ll quickly learn the difference between those that are here to help you and those that are here to put you down. If you don’t like the way someone is treating you, you can walk away. You don’t need to savor every relationship you’ve built. Some are more destructive than they are meaningful. Don’t be hurt by that. People come into your life to teach you things. When their purpose is served, it’s okay to let go.
You can’t please everyone. No matter how hard you try. People aren’t always going to agree with the things that you say or do. You need to accept that and move on. Your thoughts don’t need to shift just to please those around you. Be independent. Be unique. Be proud of the person that you are. Fitting in is overrated. It’s okay to be remembered for being different.
Keep believing that everyone is equal. That will always be one of your favorite parts about yourself. And other people will really appreciate that about you as well. Race, wealth, status, whatever it is does not define you. Everyone is equal, no matter what.
Stop comparing yourself to others. Your journey will never be the same as the person next to you. That’s why it is YOUR journey. It’s for you to experience on your own time. Comparison is a waste of time and energy. Just be yourself and live your life for yourself. No one else.
It's okay to not have a dream career in mind at such a young age. Life plays out in the most odd and unexpected ways. Just because your friends know exactly what they want out of life, doesn't mean you have to. Focus on your creativity and never lose that. You don't have to work in the medical field or be a lawyer to be successful. Just follow your heart and trust your intuition. The rest will fall into place.
Overall, stay true to your roots but don't be afraid to branch off. You aren't living for anyone but yourself. Build your life the way that you think you want it. And if things change, it's not the end of the world. Change isn't always negative and scary. It can be an awesome thing that you genuinely encourage at some point.
Keep a smile on your face. Laugh often. Stay positive even in the darkest of times. Love yourself. Love others. Forgive and release. Live for yourself.
This "exercise" was something I have seen floating around the internet for quite some time now. I highly recommend you write a letter to your younger self. Even if you don't post it anywhere. It's a great way to connect with who you were when you were younger and tell yourself all that you've learned throughout your years.